Posts Tagged ‘depressed’

Today.

23Jan09

It took so much to stop myself from taking out all my frustrations on him.
He didn’t do anything to me, but he is a blatant dick.
Perfect to let out all that pent-up anger on.
I wonder how she can expect me to go on like this.
Feeling so…
Left behind.
After everything I stated…
She paid no heed to me.
She [...]


I cannot take how she thinks I was not worth believing in.
How she thinks that I was not real.
If only she knew how hard every single day has been.
She’s just fine. Just dandy.
My parents don’t hate her at all.
They don’t think she was a mistake.
She’s happy.
What about me?
I sit here.
Feeling dejected and worthless.
Once, during an [...]


You are sad.
Evidently.
But… No. That’s the least of my problems.
I worry because I have started asking myself strange questions.
Questions stranger than “if you suck your own dick, does that make you gay?”
No…
Something is wrong when you ask yourself…
“If I were to hang myself, what would happen?”
And something is even more wrong when you ask:
“Will I [...]


That was something I really had to say.
Surprises.
I am horrible with them.
At my feet lie two possible paths.
And I cannot see what lies beyond them.
What do I do now?
Why does all this have to happen at the same time?
Oh. Right.
Cause I’m a teenager who’s sorry ass is in high school, and we all know lots [...]


I have lost a lot in the span of several days.
I have lost someone who was a friend, but beyond that…
I have lost someone who I can truly say I loved, once.
To those who have been to this page several times, you may know about who I’m talking about.
Simply because I tried to accustom myself [...]