there’s no way for me to make this coherent. I’m trying to process this all smoothly
but i can’t.
you somehow know how i work
maybe. It’s just a few sparse instances but ultimately you’re aware of a lot of things about me somehow
and this distresses me. It confuses me. It threatens me. It worries me.
and above all
it attracts me to you. So very much. So so very much.
this is what it’s like to think you’re placid
and have someone randomly come along
and pull things out from what you thought were your depths
as if they were your shores.
You somehow look deep into me
and this throws me off in so many ways
I don’t know how to make heads or tails of anything
i’ve come face to face with my own emotional Eldritch abomination, maybe.
or maybe this is just shock and it’ll wear off soon enough.
god i hope
