Torn.

31May09

That’s what I am right now…
Yes, my life’s got a lot of new, interesting developments that are worth a smile, but…
She is still a reminder.
Of what I had.
Of my inability to fulfill expectations-hers in particular.
I want to accept fate and purpose as design, but it is so difficult to do so if the mere thought [...]

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Tags: thinking

I’ve remembered.

29May09

The reason why I have chosen to doubt God is simple.
If God truly does exist, why did he let me go through what I had to?
Why did he let her leave me for those reasons?
God is supposed to be loving, caring, kind, just, and all that jazz, but…
Where’s the care for me if he let [...]

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Browsing.

28May09

My memories, that is.
If you frequent my blog, then it should come as no surprise to you that I am very prone to bouts of sentimentality, nostalgia, or anything of the like…
And I decided to think upon something that I never really tried sifting through from beginning to end-namely the relationship I shared with her.
The [...]

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Alone.

27May09

Literally, that is…
I woke up rather early today-my sisters were in a rush to ride out with nonna, and their running around woke me up…
And so I played witness to fifteen minutes of chaos, everyone kind of just running around and getting everything together.
Just as quickly as they managed to pack, they were in the [...]

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I…

24May09

Again I am thinking about a lot of things.

I was considering just leaving the blog at this, but I don’t like to hold back words when they come.
The song above is called Falling, by Jamiroquai.
If there was one song I heard a lot after she left me, it was this.
I would [...]

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Tags: falling, jamiroquai, sentimental, thinking